Seven Cigarettes
If it was meant to be a sad story, life would've ended by the time this chapter ended. If I was to remember what she said to me back then, maybe I would have not taken myself to the end of the story. It's unfortunate that we can't keep a memory of feeling or emotions, they fade away just like the taste of food, you will never remember it, until you take a taste of it again. I know that I didn't play it right at the last page of the last chapter, but who am I to blame? When your lost and you don't know your way, you'll start to seek anything that you can to grasp a glimpse of that guiding light. I would assume that all good things come to an end, and they did, but in the back of my heart and mind, I'll always feel like I could have done something within my power to change that universal ultimatum. We all laugh and cry, celebrate the good and the bad, but to be struck by harsh reality of the world, that would definitely leave a scar. Today I celebrate the end of the chapter, and I intend to not fall in my own mistakes and try to pick up crumbled pieces of what I would hope, would become perfection. Tonight, we all celebrate what has gone and past, we celebrate a new life, we celebrate the future and what is coming towards us. We all have an entire life ahead of us, we will always reminisce about the past, but better yet, we should look up to the future that would hold what's better for us. I would go back and try to create a perfect image of what I see, but in reality I know, it'll all fall down back and break apart. Look forward to what's better and let go of what's holding you back from realizing the future, the better future, the brighter and greater future, for we are only mistake prune humans, and fall into our mistakes to learn from. Today I am something, and tomorrow I'll be something even better. For everyone that showed me the righteous way, I am thankful, for everyone that spent each happy moment with me to make me who I am today, I thank you, for we all progress further ahead the harder we fall back each day. This is not the end, nor is the end any close, they world is not going to end today because I couldn't get what I want, for I know and everyone knows, tomorrow I'll be blessed with something better. Today I mark the end of a chapter in my life, and I look forward to start a new one, a better one, a more meaningful chapter that would last longer and would grace upon the years. What has she done to me, was in fact, a beautiful thing, and with all beautiful things, it faded away. I look forward to what tomorrow brings, and I'm willing to challenge what is about to be thrown at me. What has she done to me? She did nothing, because I will most probably have no memory of it in the future, and it'll be replaced with something even better. All good things come to an end, and the future is brighter than ever, for I have family and friends that are worth all the diamond mines the world can have, and that is my bliss. If it was mean't to be, nothing will come in the way, but unfortunately, it wasn't and now, it most certainly isn't. You only live once and they days that go by are not going to wait for you. This my story, and this is what she has done to me, a motivation to look forward in life, because I know I can do better, and I will do better, so can you, so can everyone, the same way the rest of the world does. For the next time I tell you the story of what she has done to me, the rest of the 8th of April, 2009, will be history to laugh at. I am zen and I am not not to be crushed down by anything, I am someone's dream the same why they are, and hey, if you didn't know, everyone would tell you, there is a lot of fish in the sea and you know it ;)








